I am happiest when surrounded with people who are sincerely understanding and loving of me. When I don’t have to question a persons intention where I can feel comfortable being my truest self. That is my happy place. To be able to express myself openly whether it be with my words or through any form of art I desire, to not feel judged or scrutinized under negative lens truly puts me in a state of bliss.
I believe every human on Earth has their own individual timing of when they experience a moment of awakening. That moment for me was motherhood. It was as if the stars aligned and my true path’s purpose appeared right before my eyes. I had the answers I had been searching years for. I understood what the actual meaning of my life was — it is love. But this type of love, A mothers love, is a feeling only a mother can understand. It is the deepest and purest love. This love is the energy that fuels me when I am so exhausted and want to stay in bed for the rest of my life, This love drives me to carry on, to show up and do my best. All for my daughter. Because I love her so much, I have learned to love myself more.
My mother. I actually can’t stand how emotionally dependent I am and have always been to my mother. I just respect her so much and admire her strength and how effortless she makes everything seem. It actually blows my mind. Now that I am a mother and feel the struggles of single motherhood with my one child, I think, Sheesh how did she cope with 3?! AND she was so young. My mother is a warrior that has overcame plenty of trauma. She never let her low experiences defeat her, She let it be the fuel for her growth. She was determined to make my sisters’ and my life better than her life. She is a phenomenal woman. She’s a true inspiration. She’s my best (and only) friend. She’s beautiful. She’s amazing. Im totally obsessed. I love you, ma! Thank you for all that you’ve done and continue to do.
This journey is a beautiful and chaotic one to say the least and we all need to gather up and support each other through it. #1 Do not be hard on yourselves, #2 Be gentle with yourselves, #3 Be patient. Understand that there is no such thing as perfection when it comes to motherhood. We must figure it out our own way on our own time the way it works best for us. What may work for me, may not work for you and that is perfectly fine. There is no book or manual that you can follow that’ll make this experience any easier. What’ll make this more mentally manageable is support from like-minded women who to a degree understand what you may be going through, whether it be emotionally, psychologically or just in your day to day life. You have support don’t be afraid to reach out for it.
She doesn’t have any attachments to toys or material things (yet) BUT she is absolutely and utterly obsessed with TROLLS! since she was about 4 months old. If all else fails and I mean tantrums , whining, fussiness, literally any weird mood is instantly cured with Trolls. It’s fascinating to see her immediate shift of energy once its on. I’m like what is this voodoo called Trolls (lmao). She just loves it so much.
LOVE. From when I was pregnant I have had this vision of me explaining to my daughter that a person who has a heart filled with love can accomplish incredible things and I don’t mean accomplishments like money, but rather deeply inward. Her soul, her highest self. She will be rich with self awareness, happiness and joy. She will manifest the life she is meant to live and the tribe of people who are meant to surround her with love. If her being is overflowing with self love she can offer love into her passions, her beliefs, her aspirations, her soul’s purpose. I’m sure she’ll look at me like a weirdo (lol) but I will make it a priority to instill this in her.
Dancing is an expression. Choreography is a relationship of body and rhythm, numbers and discipline. It’s repetitive, challenging, rewarding. Dance is freedom and being unapologetically lost in the moment, no concept of time, whereas choreography is all time, on time and on beat. Dance is whatever you make it. No rules all Feels.
HUMBLE. Be humble, To be able to make money doing what you love to do is a BLESSING. No one is promised anything! No one is owed anything. Be grateful every single day. Give thanks every single day. REMEMBER where you came from, how you started, remember how life was BEFORE. Humble Humble Humble.
Where do I even start! Well obviously as a woman everybody’s advice is to NOT get pregnant. Which has always annoyed me even before I became a mother. Like as if our lives stop when we create life.. umm NO! But lately, and the MOST ANNOYING is how people love to talk to me about my following and how social media is EVERYTHING, how people care more about followers than they do about me as an artist or even a PERSON. I am a human and my worth is not defined by followers. I did not get to where I am in my career because of followers. I got here with hard work , staying true to myself, overcoming fears, putting myself out there to be either embraced or torn apart. When youre as hungry and passionate as I am NOTHING will stop you !! Don’t let anyone try to manipulate you to feel like you don’t matter if you don’t have a following. You have purpose, You are special. Create your art, work hard, speak your truth, be kind to yourself and others. Anything is possible.
AGAIN You have purpose. You are special. Create your art. Work hard. Speak your truth. Be kind to yourself and others. Anything is possible.